“I’ve seen the kind of show Sabrina can put on. It’s good, strong work. Right to the heart. Her talk is articulate, accessible, compassionate, and street level smart. She carries an important message, and she’s a perfectly lovely human being to work with.”
-KATE BORNSTEIN – author of “Gender Outlaw” and “Hello Cruel World, 101 Alternatives to Suicide for Freaks, Geeks and Other Outlaws


Depressive, self-destructive and suicidal thoughts are experienced by more than 50% of college students, yet nobody wants to talk about self-destruction in a real way. Often shamed, these self- destructive acts are simply claims of power over oneself – power that, if channeled, can be used to fuel other acts – artistic creation. In this workshop, we’ll talk about the truths that lie behind self-destructive acts; what it feels like, where it comes from, and why it is so socially acceptable. I will introduce students to several exercises that will reign in the power of their emotions and channel them into artistic creation.
Mental Health month

The hysterical woman, the strong and silent man, how do these stereotypes affect our self-destructive behaviors? History, hormones, cultural norms, sexual desires- all have their own separate affect on how we see ourselves, and how the world sees us. When sanity has long been defined by staying inside our gender norms, how do we define our own version of sane? In this workshop, we will look at how sanity has been defined for genders throughout history, how it’s being marketed to to us today, and how we can distinguish the roles we’ve been given.

Understanding our own mental health is hard enough, but how does the mental health of our culture affect us? America could be seen, especially in this looming election, as schizophrenic. In this workshop, we’ll be looking at the issues that make up our politics- race, class, culture, how they affect our mental health and learn skills to cope in this mad, mad world.

Many artists look to their own life in order to create- but what if this brings up painful issues? ‘Performing Pain’ is a workshop that talks about the fine line between creating art for a solitary self-exploration and creating art to communicate with the public. In it, we look at self- exploration both as an art and a self-reflective tool, and learn how to create while maintaining healthy boundaries.
National Poetry Month

While editing the stories in ‘Live Through This”, I noticed a series of themes inherent in the essays. Shame, political consciousness, isolation, power versus control: these are just some of the topics that are inherent in anyone’s self-destructive journey. This multi-media lecture is an incredible introduction to the book and the themes that appear in between the lines of each artists’ story. It consists of short readings,a 45 minute multi-media lecture, and a Q&A that always prompts an interesting dialogue.



While putting together my latest collection, “Live Through This- On Creativity and Self-Destruction”, I found myself constantly attempting to understand what makes a person take their silent rage out on themselves, rather than understand it. Themes of shame, control, power and isolation came up continually- and soon I realized that each artists’ story shone some light on why some of the most intelligent and powerful people I knew were destroying themselves.

After the book’s publication, I became engaged in a more public dialogue on self destruction- and the questions were relentless: are artistic women more prone to self-destruction, are men? Are art and sanity linked? And how do we stay sane in a world gone mad in these tumultuous political and economic times?

I’ve developed a series of workshops based both on these questions, and what I’ve learned throughout my study of self-destruction, art, and survival. Currently, I am touring colleges, writing centers and basically, anyone who’s interested in the fine line between destroying and creating yourself, both as an artist, and simply, as a person discovering their power. I offer lectures, workshops, classroom talks and more- all within a reasonable fee, all designed to begin a real discourse on art and survival. 
 -Sabrina Chap


This intimate book gives you all the tools for self-emergence.

A stunning book. I found myself dreaming conversations with some of the writers—engaging in the conversation they begin here.
—DOROTHY ALLISON, author of “Bastard Out of Carolina”

“Talking about self-destruction isn’t easy, but Chap, a dynamic and supportive leader, shared and encouraged ways to channel self-destructive behaviors into positive energies and creative work through facilitating real conversations around experiences that many of us shared.”
 Center for New Words, Boston

For women whose talents include a canny ability to self-annihilate, this book is a tonic. Read it and weep. Literally.
-JENNIFER BAUMGARDNER, author “Look Both Ways”

The women in this collection give courageous insight and inspiration to any artist struggling with self-destruction.
– SARA QUINN, Tegan and Sara

“Live Through This, strikes me in all ways as a carefully crafted object-which so few books are these days.” 
, author of “Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters”

[Live Through This] posits a hopeful message: that while the quirks and sensitivities of a creative mind often seem predisposed to depression, they are also the exact qualities that provide a special set of tools with which to find a way through the darkest moments.

“The 16 essays and visuals that make up Live Through This plum the depths of out-of-control lives, examining how self-destruction functions as both a hindrance and a productive challenge. Unlike what Hollywood would like us to believe about them, the contributors—artists, writers, and musicians—are neither weak nor one-dimensional.”

“No longer is the tragic muse relegated to writing Plath-esque poetry. These artists each
challenge the notion of what it means to be consumed by madness and the ideal of what society expects of them.”

“Women’s and cultural studies students, take note.”